Tuesday, 8 December 2009

Thank you

Thank you so much for your kindness, your support, your friendship and your love.

The peace and happiness I have been blessed with since my gender affirmation surgery is beyond my humble vocabulary and so much more than I ever dreamed possible. I am not a deeply religious person but I have found this an incredibly spiritual experience.

It feels like I have been in hibernation for a while now. Its time to take a look outside. I have been thinking of you all, wondering how you were all doing, out there in the big wide world.

I have been overwhelmed by your compassionate and thoughtful postings on my blog while I have been away. The visits I have received, the phone calls, texts and emails. You have all melted my heart and lifted my spirits. That so many of you took this trouble when you have so many worries in your own lives, is something that I will always remember and be grateful for.

Please accept my apologies for not posting a response earlier, it has been really difficult for me to get to my home and access a computer and will remain this way for a little while yet as I continue to convalesce at my parents.

Special thanks to Nicky for updating my blog. My dear friend I hope your visit to the "Smile factory" in Brighton early next year, brings you everything you wish for.

I am thrilled with my surgery. I am still smiling. The staff at the hospital were absolutely brilliant. I have not been in any prolonged pain just a bit uncomfortable. Fatigue has been my biggest challenge. I lost quite a bit of blood in hospital (bleeding from my urethra) but I have been reassured my levels were ok when I left hospital and that I am not likely to feel anything like my normal energy levels for a minimum of 8 weeks. Dilating three times a day is going well but beginning to feel very time consuming. I have recently developed a puberty like complexion which has required a course of antibiotics and the wearing of a paper bag on my head if I venture outside in case I frighten anyone. Lol!

It’s difficult for my Mum, Dad & I to find the right balance of care for each other as there is a tendency to want to do too much. Friends have been so kind to offer help to us but Dad bless him has wanted to look after me so much he overdid things. I pleaded with him to accept the kind help on offer He has been out in all weathers and at one point last week I found him slumped in a chair feeling dizzy and we had to call a doctor out. We were all very worried but thankfully after some rest he seems to have recovered. I promptly made the same mistake of doing too much too soon and abandoned my convalescing until my body said NO. We are now all taking things more steady, one day at a time. Life is good. Christmas has come early for me.

How I wish I could bottle up the peace and happiness I feel and send it to you all as gift for Christmas.

Thanks for everything.

Lots of love


alan said...

This post is more than enough of a Christmas gift, Debbie! I'll be counting this blessing when I sing that old song...

Please take it easy and ask Mum and Dad to do the same! You know my soft spot for your Dad...pass along my gratitude to them both! Your convalescence is the most important thing right now; do only what you need to and nothing you don't!

So glad to find you here again!


Anonymous said...

Its great to hear from you. I am so pleased everything went so well for you.
I have loved following you and seeing you now reach the place you need to be is inspiring.
I wish you a lifetime of happiness.

Lori D said...

My heart is filled with your overflowing joy, Debbie. Blessings to you!

GirlWhoShould said...

No apologies needed. So overjoyed that you are well :)
Lucy x

Anji said...

I was so pleased to see that you'd written a post. I'm so happy for you Debbie.

Hugs to you and to your parents

Jo said...

Yay...Debbie rocks!!! So glad you're doing OK my dear (and great to see that you're back online).

The fatigue thing I have heard about...and from others know that initially you might feel that you're making a lot of progress, and then you fall back pretty exhausted. It takes a few months to be fully back to 100%, but you will get there and be firing on all cylinders soon:-)

That Polar Bear cub is off for new adventures in the big world eh? As are you now!

chrissie said...

Wonderful to hear from you, Debbie!!!

I am SO happy for you! :-)

Just take it easy and relax. The fatigue is normal after any major op, and the worse thing you can do is try and pretend it's not there.

I hope you have some good books in...:-)


caroline said...

So glad you are out of hibernation but take it easy till you are fully recovered, patience.

Caroline xx

Anonymous said...

That pic of you with the big grin on your face you could of given us Debbie :)

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Calie said...

I am thrilled with my surgery. I am still smiling.

I guess that says it all. I'm thrilled for you, Debbie.

Calie xx