Saturday 10 July 2010

Brilliant Girl (s)!

I would like to dedicate this painting & post to my dear friend Jo & all the other brilliant friends out there whose inspiration & kindness has helped me so much. I feel so privileged to know you as friends.

The painting is of a snow leopard cub called Binu. In the wild they are critically endangered due to human activities. Against all the odds a few thousand of these very elusive felines are hanging on, often in the most extreme of habitats.

My ability to paint is very much dependent on my well being & perhaps even reflects my soul. I love to paint. For a few years as my emotions became blurred & laden with storm clouds, I really struggled to reconnect with my creativity. I finally got it back last year only to lose it once more after the heartbreak caused when a cherished friendship hit the rocks. My brushes lay dormant once more but now we are firmly reacquainted. Thankfully that cherished friendship is now back on track & my mind more at peace, to enable me to paint again, with a passion, from my heART!

Trying to get back to the workplace, so I can be able to pay my way in life again, has exposed my vulnerability to anxiety & stress but also taught me a lot about myself. At first I wobbled & felt like panicking when confronted by a very stressful working environment but I managed to work through it. I am not giving in to my old fears no matter how long it takes. May be I am perhaps stronger than I thought. I have so much to be grateful for. Trying to do the right thing for everyone, taking into account all our needs, hopes & dreams, seems at times akin to a plate spinner, juggling plates at a circus! Our love will find a way.

Letting go of my past, without denying it, never mind having the choice, all seem to add baggage to the journey. In times of stress I often draw strength thinking of how you, my friends, have coped in such adversity. When the emotional bombs have finally stopped, there still seem to be after shocks to deal with.

The inspiration you have all given me will never be forgotten. It has been so heart warming to have shared part of your lives. Your spirits shine so bright, where ever your path takes you.

I have been incredibly busy trying to rebuild my life. Caring for my parents, increasing my work experience & painting furiously for our annual art exhibition. Time just seems to be racing by & it has felt increasingly difficult to keep up with friends as much as I would like, especially those here, which makes me sad. I even missed the opportunity to wish dear Jo a belated happy birthday. So much seems to be going on in everyone’s lives. Some very special friends have moved on. Saying Good by to a world you thought you lived in, can bring on so many emotions both happy & sad.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them; but then an entire life to forget them.

Dear Jo
Good luck & best wishes with your new home & new job but most importantly of all with those loved ones you cherish so dearly, your brilliant girls.

God Bless you Brilliant Friends!
Love
Debbie

8 comments:

Lucy Melford said...

A beautiful painting.

I guessed you were very busy. Well, I'm not one of those girls who have gone. I'll be in touch shortly - as soon as I catch up with all the promised photo work! (Another kind of creativity, though not nearly as demanding as your own; it's just time-consuming)

Lucy

Anonymous said...

What a beautiful painting.

I wanted to let you know that you have been an inspiration to me and I am sure many others to.
I thank you for sharing your journey with us and hope to hear how you are doing in the future.

xxx

chrissieB said...

Lovely painting, honey.. :-)

It's great to have such friedns to draw strength from when things get too much. It's a hsared thing, as well. I am sure most of us feel those dreadful anxieties; I know I do, and my friedns do help inspire me.

Hugs
chrissie
xxxxx

Calie said...

A gorgeous painting, Debbie. I had to expand it because at first I thought it was a picture. I am serious when I say it is absolutely beautiful.

I hope all is well. Please know I always visit your blog and enjoy your heartfelt writing.

Calie xxx

Calie said...

Oh, and I am so jealous of Jo, who got such a special painting dedicated to her!

Debbie K said...

Dear friend
Thank you for your kind words. They really do make a difference & give me the energy to keep going.
x Debbie

Dear Lucy
You have a very creative eye. Your photographs are very artistic. Lifes abut creating memories & you capture those special moments in a very talented unique way.
x Debbie

Dear Lisa
It really is your time to blossom.
You are doing all the right things.
x Debbie

Dear Chrissie
We really do have Angels for friends. We are all works in progress. If only we could see ourselves as our true friends do.
I hope you can see in your heart what a beautiful person we all know you are.
x Debbie

Dear Callie
Bless you for your kind words. This painting is also dedicated to you. You are definately one of the "Brilliant Girls" who have touched my heART!
X Debbie

Dear Friend
Wise words indeed. Prevention would in an ideal world definately be better than the cure . It gets harder to change your way of thinking when you are as old as me. The longer you go without discovering what to do to prevent your anxiety taking over the longer I have found it takes to get well.

Debbie x

Jo said...

Debbie honey

I am blown away :-) Wow!

I'm sorry I haven't seen this before - the blog feed on my blog seems weirdly to be very erratic...I shouldn't rely on it...

You are stronger than you think. You are proving it every day. If I and others helped show a way, then I was privileged. You did the same for me. I mean that.

We are all starting the rest of our lives...we never thought we would did we? It seemed impossible. Insane to even contemplate it. But it's possible, and it's happening, for you and me both...

Hugs and love xxx

Debbie K said...

Bless you Jo
Its certainly happening.
XXXXXX Debbie

Thank you to all of you who write here. It would be lovely if I knew all your names. I use google to translate your words.