Debbie K Being True to my heART: Euphoria

Saturday, 28 June 2008

Euphoria

The last week has been a really exciting time for me. Lots of positive experiences. As the sweet Rebecca mentioned recently in her blog “gender euphoria”. I like that expression. It has been such a joy to read of so many of my friends in "sparkling form" this week after our recent experiences on the rollercoaster of emotions. True friends are so important & so valuable. Sharing our good & bad times, always knowing they are there for us. Bless each & everyone of you.

I had started this week with my confidence wobbly & feeling more than a little fragile.

I have so much to look forward to yet I often dwell to long on my past. Certain events, certain places, situations evoke all kinds of emotions. It seems crazy how my mind often remembers some things from my past really easily & just forgets more recent events. I have suffered in the past with panic attacks & had severe problems with confidence in just about everything about my life.

This negative mind set is thankfully beginning to change. Sometimes I take a while to see quite how significant the improvements have been. There is such a lot going on in my life just now. The pace of life in this country seems to be getting quicker & quicker for everyone. The photo is of a lazy day on the magical Okavango. A beautiful wilderness just about as far away from the rat race as you can imagine. Briefly zipping along at speed but always stopping to appreciate the true beauty in the world. Sometimes our lives are so out of control & rushed we fail to stop & appreciate the simple things in life. Take me for example "I'm simple" & I never used to appreciate the world around me. I will never ever forget the privelidge I had to go to Botswana but right now I would not swap places with a seat on another trip to that incredible wilderness, with where I am in my life just now.

My plans for painting have gone on the back burner. So much has happened this week. I have so much I want to blog about I will try to break it down into separate stories for each day. That Euphoria is melting my keyboard not to mention my senses.

Love
Debbie

2 comments:

Anji said...: I was away from the computer for a few days and missed all of your posts!

It's very easy to dwell on the negative memories in the past. I remember Rabbi Blue saying once that it is a bad habit to get into. since then I've made a big effort to let the past go and look to the future with confidence. I see you are doing the same!; 29 June 2008 at 02:53
Debbie K said...: Hi Anji
I am trying to move on but its not something I have fully mastered yet. Rabbi Blue is a very wise man.
Love
Debbie; 29 June 2008 at 03:54

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If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
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I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I cross the stream - I have a dream
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The one who takes your hand but touches your heart is a true Friend

You cannot change the weather but you can change your thoughts

We seldom think of what we have, but always think of what we miss.

Feel the fear & do it anyway by Francis Jeffers.

Don‘t cry because it’s over now, laugh because it happened

The more precisely you plan, the harder destiny will hit you

What happens, happens for a reason

Don't make an effort because the best things happen, when you least expect them

The greatest events aren't the loudest, but the most quiet hours

The most difficult lesson to learn is: Which bridge in life to use or which one to break off

Everybody sees how you seem, however, only some know who you are

He who would like to have something he never had, will have to do something well, that he hasn’t done yet

Perhaps God would want you to become acquainted with many different people in the course of your life, so that when you meet the right ones, you can appreciate and be grateful for them

Plan for tomorrow but LIVE for today

Love doesn't require two people look at each other, but that they look together in the same direction. (Antoine de Saint Exupery)

Life is drawing without an eraser

I wish you always: Air to breath, Fire to warm you, Water to drink and The earth to live in.

"...Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? " by Marriame Williamson

1. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

2. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

3. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

4. When you say, 'I love you,' mean it.

5. When you say, 'I'm sorry,' look the person in the eye.

6. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

7. Believe in love at first sight.

8..Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much.

9. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

10. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

11. Don't judge people by their relatives.

12.Talk slowly but think quickly.

13. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, 'Why do you want to know?

14. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

15. Say 'bless you' when you hear someone sneeze.Â

16. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

17. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and Responsibility for all your actions.

18. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

19. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

20. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice

21. Spend some time alone.

Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

Just live your dream.

When you lose, don’t lose the lesson………….

Follow the three R’s:

Ø Respect for Self,

Ø Respect for Others and

Ø Responsibility for all your Actions

Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.

Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.

Don’t let a little dispute injure a great relationship.

When you realize you’ve made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

Spend some time alone every day.

Open your arms to change, but don’t give up your values.

Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.

Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you’ll be able to enjoy it a second time

A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life.

In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don’t bring up the past.

Share your knowledge. It is a way to achieve immortality.

Be gentle with the Earth.

Once a year, go some place you’ve never been before.

Remember the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.

Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.

Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.

“The turning point in the process of growing up is when you discover the strength within you that survives all the hurt.”

We could learn a lot from crayons: some are sharp, some are pretty, some are dull, some have weird names, and all are different colors....but they all exist very nicely in the same box. - Unknown

Everything has beauty but not everyone sees it.

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"Discovering the truth about ourselves is a lifetime's work, but it's worth the effort."

The golden rule of conduct, therefore, is mutual toleration, seeing that we will never all think alike and we shall see Truth in fragment and from different angles of vision~

Nothing can bring you peace but yourself. "~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

While you are proclaiming peace with your lips, be careful to have it even more fully in your heart."

- St. Francis of Assisi

"It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essentially invisible to the eye."Antoine De Saint-Exuper

Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that" ~ Martin Luther King Jr.

The golden rule of conduct, therefore, is mutual toleration, seeing that we will never all think alike and we shall see Truth in fragment and from different angles of vision~

Nothing can bring you peace but yourself. "~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

While you are proclaiming peace with your lips, be careful to have it even more fully in your heart."

- St. Francis of Assisi

"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent"

"You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, 'I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.' You must do the thing you think you cannot do"

"Do what you feel in your heart to be right - for you'll be criticized anyway. You'll be damned if you do, and damned if you don't"

"Friendship with oneself is all-important, because without it one cannot be friends with anyone else in the world"

"I think that somehow, we learn who we really are and then live with that decision"

Beautiful young people are accidents of nature, but beautiful old people are works of art.

Do what you feel in your heart to be right for you will be criticied anyway. You will be damned if you do & damned if you don't.

Friendship with oneself is all important, because without it one cannot be friends with anyone else in the world.

Great minds discuss ideas; Average minds discuss events; Small minds discuss people.

I could not at any age be content to take my place & sit in a corner by the fireplace & simply look on.

I think some how we learn who we really are & then live with that decission.

If someone betrays you once, its their fault; if they betray you twice, its your fault.

It is not fair to ask of others what you are unwilling to do yourself.

Justice cannot be done for one side alone, but must be for both.

Learn from the mistakes of others. You can't live long enough to make them all your self.

Life was meant to be lived & curiousity must be kept alive.

One must never for whatever reason turn his back on life.

One thing life has taught me: if you are interested, you never have to look for new interests. They come to you. When you are genuinely interested in one thing, it will always lead to something else.

The purpose of life is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly & without fear for newer & richerr experience.

You gain strength, courage & confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along. You must do the thing you cannot.

People grow through experience if they meet life honestly & courageously. This is how character is built.

Life is a great big canvas, and you should throw all the paint on it you can.-Danny Kaye

Just living is not enough. One must have sunshine, freedom, and a little flower.-Hans Christian Anderson

Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood.-Marie Curie

Once more my dear friends unto the breach.-William Shakspeare

The minute you settle for less than you deserve, you get even less than you settled for.- Maureen Dowd

All our dreams can come true - if we have the courage to pursue them.- Walt Disney

The hard way is the right way- John Alves

The beauty of the world has two edges, one of laughter, one of anguish, cutting the heart asunder.- Virginia Woolf

A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future and accepts you today the way you are.

“Thousands of candles can be lit from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared.”(Hindu Prince Gautama Siddharta, the founder of Buddhism, 563-483 B.C.)

Wise words by Tess on Angels

Sometimes when we stand on the edge of something new, even of something we have planned and wished and hoped for for years, the immensity of the step before us is paralysing.

Whatever it is we are leaving behind it is familiar. It may have been warm and comfortable, but wrong; it may have been an awful place that we have been desperate to leave. Whichever it is it is what we have known and its boundaries, its dangers and its comforts are well-known. However horrible it is we are safe there, we have routines and we are habituated to it.

Standing on the edge of the new life, with our wings spread is the worst moment of all. Below us is the unknown and we will be stepping away from everything that was once reliable. Here, at this moment, we can step back. We can say “No.” After all we have survived here for so long. Curling back onto a ball will make the fear go away and the familiar come back.

But what if this chance only ever comes once? All that time spent dreaming, planning and preparing, all the effort we have put into getting to this point that was about what might be; the things that we want. These plans have been built with hope, with love and with excitement. If we don’t take that chance, seize this opportunity there is no reason why we cannot plan it all again. We will always have that plan, we can enact it anytime. But deep inside we know that the chance has gone, that it will never happen now. So when we dream and plan even prepare we are no longer building with hope, we are building with regret. And nothing good has ever been built with regret.

Debbie K Being True to my heART

Saturday, 28 June 2008

Euphoria

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