
Right now I feel like my heart has been riped out.
The humble journey of a shy & devoted daughter on a voyage of self discovery. Guided by an enlightened human spirit, on a sea of love, provided by wonderful parents & true friends, who have all so kindly held out their hands & all touched my heart. Always trying her best to do the right thing for her family & friends. Life for me is like drawing without an eraser. It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essentially invisible to the eye.
The golden rule of conduct, therefore, is mutual toleration, seeing that we will never all think alike and we shall see Truth in fragment and from different angles of vision~
Nothing can bring you peace but yourself. "~ Ralph Waldo Emerson
While you are proclaiming peace with your lips, be careful to have it even more fully in your heart."
- St. Francis of Assisi
"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent"
"You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, 'I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.' You must do the thing you think you cannot do"
"Do what you feel in your heart to be right - for you'll be criticized anyway. You'll be damned if you do, and damned if you don't"
"Friendship with oneself is all-important, because without it one cannot be friends with anyone else in the world"
"I think that somehow, we learn who we really are and then live with that decision"
Beautiful young people are accidents of nature, but beautiful old people are works of art.
Do what you feel in your heart to be right for you will be criticied anyway. You will be damned if you do & damned if you don't.
Friendship with oneself is all important, because without it one cannot be friends with anyone else in the world.
Great minds discuss ideas; Average minds discuss events; Small minds discuss people.
I could not at any age be content to take my place & sit in a corner by the fireplace & simply look on.
I think some how we learn who we really are & then live with that decission.
If someone betrays you once, its their fault; if they betray you twice, its your fault.
It is not fair to ask of others what you are unwilling to do yourself.
Justice cannot be done for one side alone, but must be for both.
Learn from the mistakes of others. You can't live long enough to make them all your self.
Life was meant to be lived & curiousity must be kept alive.
One must never for whatever reason turn his back on life.
One thing life has taught me: if you are interested, you never have to look for new interests. They come to you. When you are genuinely interested in one thing, it will always lead to something else.
The purpose of life is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly & without fear for newer & richerr experience.
You gain strength, courage & confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along. You must do the thing you cannot.
People grow through experience if they meet life honestly & courageously. This is how character is built.
Life is a great big canvas, and you should throw all the paint on it you can.-Danny Kaye
Just living is not enough. One must have sunshine, freedom, and a little flower.-Hans Christian Anderson
Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood.-Marie Curie
Once more my dear friends unto the breach.-William Shakspeare
The minute you settle for less than you deserve, you get even less than you settled for.- Maureen Dowd
All our dreams can come true - if we have the courage to pursue them.- Walt Disney
The hard way is the right way- John Alves
The beauty of the world has two edges, one of laughter, one of anguish, cutting the heart asunder.- Virginia Woolf
A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future and accepts you today the way you are.
7 comments:
Debbie, I'm so sorry to hear that.
I can only just begin to understand the pain and upset, the kick in the teeth from those mean to be caring for you.
'phones on if you need a chat.
I may not be around for a while. I have kind of been expecting this to happen. When I can summon the energy I willl fight their decission not to allow me to go to Mr Thomas in Brighton. I need to try to formulate a plan of action.
Their reason seems to be that the trust has an agrement with the West London Mental Health Trust Gender Dysphoria Service.
I have spoken with my counsellor & she is going to be in contact with me every day. I have also spoken to the duty doctor at my local mental health unit but there is little he can say or do. I need an urgent appointment to see the consultant physchiatrist who referred me. My depression is back with a vengeance but I will not get suicidal. When I can stop crying I will go back to my family.
Love
Debbie
I'm so sorry Debbie. Is there a way round this?
Borrowing from Jess above, sometimes I'd like to return that kick to the beancounters...
I'm glad to read that there is a way to fight them; surely somewhere along the way some compassion must kick in!
Thank you for saying you have the strength to withstand this; yet again you show me what true strength is about!
Thinking of you my friend...
alan
I'm sorry Debbie I know how you had your hopes set of this.
Debbie darling. Call me. The mobile no is best as BT are about to screw up my phone line.
All is not lost honey. Believe it. This is a tough moment for you my friend...very very tough, but it's not uncommon for PCTs to try this. They have been beaten in court elsewhere in the country on this issue (Calderdale I think), and precedents set. This is a going in position they they are opening up with, and you can fight it my friend. With therapists, psychiatrist, GP, any one else you are seeing behind you...you can roll up your sleeves and get stuck in.
Get onto the Angels/Roses/Nuyttycats sites and start getting advice...when you feel able. Regather. It's not over yet honey...really it's hardly started, and you can gather your forces once more.
I am sending you a HUGE hug!!!
Debbie, I'm sorry to hear this, but from what I can make out and going by Jo's comment this is round one of a tough fight.
Build up your strength and take Jo's advice.
You've given me good advice in the past, I wish I could do the same. All I can say is fight till you get what you need. There are people who will stand with you, some you probably don't even know yet.
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