I have some humble news of my own to record today. It feels like I have been on an incredible journey. Like the elephants I was so fortunate to see crossing the Chobe river in Botswana. They had travelled a long way & encountered many difficult situations just to survive. Some problems they made themselves. A lot of those challenges were created by man kind enforcing its will on nature. They got to where they wanted to & so I hope have I.
My sense of self seems to be becoming so much stronger & with it a confidence & peace of mind that is like nothing, I have ever experienced before. Legally changing my name was so much more than a piece of paper. It seems to have given extra validation to what is happening to me. Most importantly there seems to be a sense of closure with my poor parents who were finding things terribly difficult. My relations with my parents are thankfully so much better now. Gently does it had been my mantra but recently our loving relationship had been under great strain. This week there has been an incredibly positive change in all our lives. We sure are getting there. It is so much nicer if we can have the support of our families & no longer have to feel like we are hurting them. It feels like heaven on earth.
On Friday I had to visit London to see my consellor. We had so many positive things to discuss. I had hoped to meet a friend for coffee in Bond street but when she had to cancel, I found I had too much spare time on my hands & succumbed to temptation. With all those great shops near by, what is a girl supposed to do! I ended up spending a little more money than I really should have. I couldn't help myself & bought some lovely MAC make up in Selfridges. Sat there having a mini make over, just like any other women, felt so normal, yet so incredibly special. I think we are entitled to a little pampering to celebrate how far we have come.
I had a really good session with my counsellor. We were discussing things I just could not believe we ever would. The whole day out in London with the small exception of the unfortunate cancelled engagement, went like a dream.
I am so thrilled by myself & my friends progress. Today I finally feel ready for my real life experience.
Just keep following your heart & living your dreams.