The magic alexia of friends.

This posting could have had several titles. The power of love & positive thoughts. The magical Alexia of "Doris world." "Peaceful Sunrise" which is the name of the watercolour of my identical twin sister sat on a branch in Borneo.


All of you who kindly added something here made such a difference to me today, you all touched my heart & also someone else who needed your love.

I am so new to blogging I had never experienced anything quite like it before. I was used to offering my humble support to friends on the web but I was overwhelmed by your responses. It is so therapeutic & I could easily imagine it could become almost addictive, after my experiences today. I tried not to read all your kind comments again as I knew the way I was feeling I would only start crying again. I had so much to do today & like a child who had been told not to do something I just could not help myself. I did not feel worthy of all the kindness you have shown me & I just had to check if it really happened.

I read your replies one last time & surprise, surprise I just burst into tears again. You all said the sweetest things. Just as well I had not put my face on,at that point. My concentrations was all over the place. My thoughts were awash with emotions, once more.

Then as quickly as every thing just welled up inside me a calmness descended. I felt some how magically empowered. I achieved everything I had hoped to do yesterday. Ironically my Mum told me I arrived a day late when I was born, the first time.

This involved contacting Government offices, Insurances, Utilities, Hospitals, support agencies, a whole list of people asking them to amend my records. It was a none event to them. All but one of them were really helpful & courteous. I am just a number on their computer to most of them but to me it represented so much more. My friend Rob has finally disappeared beneath my sea of tears.

I was feeling so alive & so positive I also took a big step towards returning to work, for the first time in my life as Debbie. I have contacted a new team of people who are there to help me find a pathway to work. I feel ready.

By chance this evening I visited a new friends blog http://beccas-thoughts.blogspot.com/ She is a delightful American lady called Rebecca & she is on a similar journey to me. The poor love was sat in her office with her hand hovering over the send button, to let all her colleagues know she was about to transition. I had been too scared to do that when I was at work. She was so brave yet understandably scared. At some point it had to happen & it needed to. She felt vulnerable & afraid of the unknown, just like we all do in our lives from time to time. For some like me, everyday of our lives could be like that. Recent wondrous events in my life are changing that feeling & I so wanted to share some of that experience with her. I humbly suggested she should listen to her soul not her mind & when she was ready she would know. A short time later she posted a joyous "Its gone"!

I am so pleased for her. She had found that magical spirit herself. Only she could do that for herself, but if in some small way we have made a difference, I hope that makes the world seem a happier place for us all.

I dare not tell her how much of a coward I had been the last few days. She knows nothing of this little blog or the marvelous friends who gathered round me, yet without meeting each other in real life, we had all reached out to help a fellow human being, a friend.



It's a wonderful world.

Today you showed me the way forward with compassion & warmth.

Bless you all.


((((((((((((((Peaceful Sunrises ))))))))))))))))))

Love
Debbie